new adjustments

Im having a hard time sleeping and eating and studying and doing my obligations at our home.

Oh, well I anticipated this kind of adjustments even before I made my resume.

I really have to do this, i have to convince myself that I can do this. I have plans, some are even as selfish as it gets but in the end I hope I will not be taken to the path I onced walked. I want to live the rightheous way now. I dont want to go astray. The past have brought me pain and even my dignity was taken away. But by all means, I will get up and walk again.

I felt a pinch in my heart when he told me that his father was at the hospital. Once, i felt really close to a family and that it saddens me to find out that his father was sick. I even remember seeing him at a hospital room with his wife and children but that was on a different situation. As much as I wanted to be there and just to see his face, I cant. I'll just express my love through prayers. I hope you're OK now.

Thank you Lord and please have mercy.