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We are pressed on every side by troubles, but not crushed and broken... We get knocked down, but we GET UP again and keep going...II Corinthians 4:8-9

I was inspired by a blogger that I came across only a couple of weeks ago. Then, it made me realized the importance of giving testimonies of our life to glorify our Lord.

Looking back I was crushed by emotional problems and the only one I turned to was God. I went to church (I was a catholic then) and poured my heart out. I cried until there was no more tears left. I prayed that I can have healing. And He answered it and I'm happy because now I understand.

This time around, I felt the same pain of a lost love I had once felt. But today, although I'm at the process of healing and struggling, I felt confident that later I will have happiness and peacefulness that the Lord have promised. The hurt and loneliness was beyond my expectations but now I can divert my thoughts to a more meaningful ideas. I'm certainly picking up the shattered pieces and determined to put myself and my life together. The Lord have made me turned my back to sins and made me a new person. He does not only saved my life but also my soul.

not a poem

Im playing a new tune.
Different from the one i've already learned.
It surprises me, entrails me.
Amazing how it moves me.

I'm practicing by heart.
Focusing my mind.
Training my body.
Enjoying my time.

My hands ache at every beat.
But it relaxes my spirit.
My throat strains with high pitch.
But lifting my voice to Him.

I will not fail, determined to pray.
Until last thread of endurance fails.
My soul is blessed while singing.
Singing praises to Jesus, my king.

Just amazing

I never really knew someone so famous. I think famous is not the right term(can you help me). I think to describe it, someone who knew their talents and capabilities and have succeed in nurturing them. The few chosen ones who rise up above the rest.

I have been given the oppurtunity to spend part of my High School years with the genius Roselle Ambubuyog. Her weakness have not a bit mitigate her self confidence and perseverance. She is a scholar and she is a genius. These words may never be enough to describe the grandeur of this lady. She has a very good sense of humor and is very down to earth. And she has a good heart.

Recently i found out that my High School friend passed the board exams. I also learned that she was the councilor in their district. She have earned the delight and respect from her friends. Maybe someday i will be surprised she'd be running for senator.

I recently discovered a very talented photographer. He is capturing the wonders of nature. He expresses the emotions of human. He believes in education.

I came accross an accident on our way to church. The old lady was hit by a motorbike. She could not stand up, she had a broken leg. A few men and a tricycle driver offered to take her to the hospital.

These people are gifts to us, to the human race. Like the scientist, inventors, artists and engineers before us. They have captured our minds and hearts. They have given society a new perspective. Inputing their own principles to life. That they may give hope and inspiration to people.

Its not being famous really. Its not even what they have done. Its how they touch ordinary lives.

God Bless Us.

Break free

Pilit ko man sabihin sa sarili ko na

"papasakop ako o masunurin ako,"

hindi ko pa rin magawa.

Gusto kong lumaya. Gusto kong mag-explore.

Mahilig ako magpunta sa ibat-ibang lugar.

Gusto kong subukan ang sarili ko kung kaya ko siyang puntahan.

Gusto kong magbiyahe.

Gusto kong magpunta sa maraming tao gaya ng Divisoria.

Gusto kong magpunta sa na lugar na pwede kong ilublob ang mga paa ko sa tubig.

Gusto kong mamalas ang ganda ng dagat.

Minsan gusto ring sumigaw kapag naabot ko na ang tuktok ng bundok.

Gusto kong gumuhit at ipinta ang kulay ng langit.

Gusto kong maglakad.

Uumpisahan ko na.

Sayang, gusto ko kasama kita.

the beach

Ang ganda ng beach. Ang linaw ng tubig. Ang sarap damhin ng init ng araw. Ang sarap ng simoy ng hangin, malinis at malamig sa pakiramdam. Ang sarap lumangoy. Feeling ko para akong isda sa dagat na malayang nakakalangoy saan ko man naisin. Relax kapag sa bawat kampay ng paa ko ay umuusad ako patungo sa lugar na abot ng aking paningin. Nakaka- inganyong sumisid at kunin sa ilalaim ng dagat ang mga batong maputi at makinis. Sana nga may waterproof akong camera para pati sa ilalaim ng dagat at makuha ko ang kagandahan ng nature.

Nagpapasalamat ako sa ate ko dahil in-enrol niya ako sa swimming school. Nagpapasalamat ako sa teacher ko na matiyagang nagturo sa akin bagamat hindi kami magkaintindihan. Nagturo siya ng tama at ayon sa takbo ng pakatuto ko. Nagpapasalamat ako sa mga kaklase ko dahil binigyan nila ako ng pag-asa. Nagpapasalamat ako sa sarili ko kasi hindi ako sumuko. Nagpapasalamat ako sa Diyos dahil binigyan niya ako ng pagkakataon at iningatan niya ako palagi.

Have you gone to the beach lately? treat mu naman ang sarili mu paminsan-minsan hindi yung puro trabaho. Kung pupunta ka sama ako ha?! ;-)

When to let go ..

Email sa akin dati.

Imagine this.
In your hand is a very precious creation, so fragile, so valuable that if you keep on holding, it would either stay or fall apart.But you loved this creature so much, so much that letting it go would be like letting go of your life as well. So much that sometimes you wished it would be there forever. So much that you tend to be selfish at times so as you could make it stay for as long as you like.Don't we all wish something "so good" could be forever? Don't we all hope that happiness is there to stay?

One person said, never ever let your heart run your life, as much as you can, always be sensible and let your mind speak for itself. Try to listen not merely on what your feelings is invoking on you as a person but more importantly listen to reason as well.Letting go of someone doesn't necessarily mean you have to stop loving, it only means that you allow that person to find his own happiness without expecting him to come back.

Letting go is not just setting the other person free (in the real sense of it), but it is also setting yourself free from all animosity, revulsion, and resentment that was long kept in your heart. You have to let go because the bitterness often puts away the strengths and weakens the littlest hope, making our lives more miserable than ever. Worst, presenting yourself as the "most affected one" sets the nastiest impression of all time--whatta a loser!

The trick there is...always remember that if you lose someone today, itmeans that someone better is coming tomorrow.If you lose love that doesn't mean that you failed in love...right? Just regard it as another mismatch of heaven! Well, you can cry of course, or whine or shout (growl even) if you have to, but make sure that after those outbursts you have washed away the hurt and the bitterness that the pasthas left with you (easy said than done I know!).We can all survive with just beautiful memories of the past but real peace and happiness come only with open acceptance of what reality is today.

You really don't have to forget someone you love ('cause it's hard). What we need to learn is how to accept the verdict of reality without being bitter or sorry for what we have become. I think it's better that we give off that dedication and love to someone more deserving. Hmmm..."Who could it be" is the next interesting question to ponder.Let go of yesterday and love will find its way back to you. And when it does, pray hard that it may be the love that will stay and last a lifetime.

my six-months life

Ang natatandaan ko malapit na akong magresign sa dati kong work. Gusto ko nang umalis talaga pero hindi sa paraang ganito. Pupunta ako sa malayong lugar na hindi ko alam ang magyayari sa akin. Maiiwan ko ang love ko. Maiiwan ko ang mga kaibigan ko. Mawawala ang tenure ko. At feeling ko mahihinto ang buhay ko. Well slight ganun nga ang nangyari. Mapunta ka ba naman sa bansa na iba ang salita eh di para ka na ring naging pipi at bingi. Buti na lang kasama ko ang nanay ko at nakatira kami sa bahay ng ate ko dun sa Japan.

Well ako'y nasadlak sa ibat-ibang trabaho. May maliit ang sahod pero nakakalibre naman ako ng overseas call. Mayroong malaking sahod pero gising ka naman magdamag. At higit sa lahat malayo ako sa loves ko. Hanggang sa hindi ko nakayanan, nakipaghiwalay ako. Malapit na ang 6 months at malapit na akong umuwi pero bitbit naman ang mga papels pabalik sa Japan. Kung hindi ba naman, naulit pa! Well, marami ding nangyari sa halos isang buwan ko dito sa Pilipinas. Nakipagkita ako sa mga kaibigan ko, nag-ayos ng papels, nag charity works, etc. Nagkabalikan din kami ng loves ko.

At eto na balik 6 months. This time mas grabe. Matindi ang trabaho,kayod kabayo talaga at gawaing bahay pa. Kailangan mu pang makisama sa mga tao sa bahay. Kailangan mu pang intindihin ang pamilya sa pilipinas. Kailangan mu pang dalhin ang problema ng isang tao dahil ayaw mu siyang ma-stress. Iisipin mu pa yung loves mu sa pilipinas. (Puro reklamo) But this is when i grow in Faith. Kasama ko si Lord kaya hindi ako nag give -up. Nagdadasal na lang ako na sana malapit na akong umuwi.

Ang sarap ng buhay. I'm free.

But wait anu na naman ito?

Kailangan naman umalis ng bestfriend ko to another country.Pero madali pa ito kasi at least its for her future and for her family. The last time we saw each other was at the airport na.

Nagkasakit naman ang sister ko. At kailangan niyang operahan sa utak. Fortunately, miracle ng Lord at fully-recovered naman siya. Pero kailangan bumalik ng nanay ko sa Japan. Maiiwan ako to take care of my family. Trabaho at pamilya ang gagampanan ko. I can't handle one more.

Saka na ang happy days.

Another 6 months.

fresh

i'm glad i have found a new home. i guess this just what i need right now.happy to be a writer once more (at least for myself). may i have a lot of inspiration to write songs,stories, etc. And time to express how i really feel. i have a lot to say, some comments to post and a whole lot of reading to do...i hope this will at least ease the weariness i felt right now.