hey I'm back

New friends, new schedule, new headset, new locker, its all new!!!!!
I miss some friends hate some friends hehheehe
well chances..a lot actually
moved along...
sigh!

thakful still for the safety, for the food, for the joy, for the love of GOD.

concert

The past week was really fast. The assistant trainor was really fast and we were all relax during his take-over classes. Out trainor was busy with the new class but its all good.
I'm just having a dilemna over my seatmate. I think she needs the job as much as I do but I think she better do things fast otherwise we wont survive the training.I have also met a batchmate that is also a book lover. It surprises me because he did'nt seem toi have any bounderies. He have read a lot and it shows.

Funny I didnt think training would be this hard. I guess it is how it works nowadays.

Due to the nature of my work I have to quit playing my guitar during Sunday worship. But I'm going back to singing! I'm not really a great singer but I think i get get along.

We also went to a christian concert at one of the extension church at Bustos. It was great! The band is good and the singers were awesome. The keyboardist (if there is such a word) was familliar to us because he went to our practice once in a while. He is very good, I could tell he is also the musical director of the whole band.

We even have free dinner. We had a lot of fun especially during the dinner part. We've had a few good laughs. It's such a great feeling.

I have learned that sometimes things arent what we want it. And that there's just no other way but the onse we have grown up with, but I guess we have to do something about it. Just like my japanese friend said... Maybe YOU are the first one that has to take all the hardships so that the next generation will have a better life.

I just realized something, oh well, I knew this all the time but I guess I'm just to lazy to do it....

Hmmmmm some of my random thoughts.....

Cards

I have read a story last night and it strengthen my goal right now.

Its about this guy's dream. He found himself at a room, one wall was covered by a file, the one you see in the libraries with index cards inside each file box.

The headings were unusual. One file says, The songs I have listened too, or Lustful thoughts, or Instances where I shouted back to my parents. He realized that the files were his past, his every memory, his sins, his achievements. Each card was in his own hand writing affixed with his signature. Fear then anger was his inital reaction, as musch as he wanted to destroy everything, he cannot. And then he saw Jesus. Of all people he does'nt want to see Him there, he doesnt want Jesus to saw his wrongdoings. The guy cried, to his surprise Jesus cried with him, too. And then, Jesus came to the files and wrote his own signature on each card. Its like acknowledging the sins and taking it as his own. There written on the cards, His signature written with his blood. The guy wanted to stop Jesus but Jesus said "its finished."

It reminds us that our sins were forgiven by the death and ressurection of Jesus Christ. He wanted to repent so that we may become pure like Him.

You would understand better by reading the whole book.

You can read "I kissed dating Goodbye" by Joshua Harris.

Its more than what the title says, its a new perspective.

Moreso read the bible.

....

Well, I said to a friend..."I missed the feeling of having a commitment, but I guess I can't bear the responsibility that goes with it, so I better not have one."

I realized as I move on, that some of my actions were justified. I have to do something that is so hard to do, even painful to do, because it is the right thing to do. sometimes I felt guilty but reasons came that made me realized that, it is what I supposed to do.

All I have to do is trust Him.

new adjustments

Im having a hard time sleeping and eating and studying and doing my obligations at our home.

Oh, well I anticipated this kind of adjustments even before I made my resume.

I really have to do this, i have to convince myself that I can do this. I have plans, some are even as selfish as it gets but in the end I hope I will not be taken to the path I onced walked. I want to live the rightheous way now. I dont want to go astray. The past have brought me pain and even my dignity was taken away. But by all means, I will get up and walk again.

I felt a pinch in my heart when he told me that his father was at the hospital. Once, i felt really close to a family and that it saddens me to find out that his father was sick. I even remember seeing him at a hospital room with his wife and children but that was on a different situation. As much as I wanted to be there and just to see his face, I cant. I'll just express my love through prayers. I hope you're OK now.

Thank you Lord and please have mercy.

A sofa

Still learning...thanks for the comment..

My mother was in-charge of all the things that was brought in our house. I never really had a comment on the things around the house until she went to my sister a few hours of plane trip from us and I was left to take care of the house and the people inside it...(very sarcastic!)

Well, I can say that my mother is very industrious, organized, and tidy in maintaining our home. Although sometimes she is into some out-of-this-world stuff but nonetheless all was absolutely OK..(still not quite enough)

Lately did I realized that some of the things, I think, should be given away or thrown out. One thing is our sofa. I asked my father, if maybe we should give the sofa away. He was taken aback and said that my mother will get angry for doing that. But I told him, the sofa requires a lot of cleaning and I think I have a lot of other important things than doing that. It also occupies a lot of space. Actually I have something in my mind. I dont want a sofa, I want chairs or high chairs or may be even a leather round sofa. I wish I have enough money to buy those. I want to give our house a better look or a better feel. I want it to be quite modern. We are all grown-up and I think chairs is enough. I imagine conversations taking place with the chairs of each kind or maybe a small imitation of a bar with high chairs. Soft music or just the TV on but the focus are the people exchanging opinions and/or laughing at a joke. The visitors wont worry where to sleep in anyway we have an extra room now =) well, just in case they want to stay.

By the way, I'm going to be busy in the coming days...im feeling kinda sad.

I also want to thank the Lord for these new blessing. Something to feel very glad.Ironic.

Changes...like the ones in my life.

Turn around not looking back..

I missed reading a book and its been a more than a year since i really finish a book. The last book Ihave read then was Tuesdays with Morrie. It was given to me by my bestfriend. She never misses to share her hobbies with me. I thank her because in her little ways, she inspires me.

I missed reading Harry Potter. It's good thing i've already read the one that was just shown at the movies, The Order of the Phoenix. It helps because I have some idea about the story. And I think the running time of latest movie was shorter compared to the previous ones. I have to keep in mind that I have to read the next one.

I still have to finish the one reading I'm right now. I got it from a website that I love. The book was "I kissed dating goodbye" by Joshua Harris. It was followed by Boy Meets Girl, which i'm very curious. It was actually sold out at a certain bookstore.

But then again, i guess and I hope I could still have the time to read.

Sometimes I feel guilty because I could stay up late in the evening and read the book I'm interested at the moment but failed to endure the a few minutes reading the bible.

Sometimes I could even stay up late in the evening while hanging out with my friends or going out on a date but I failed to weak to wake up to attend the dawn prayer.
When will I be able to stay strong and worthy to be called a Christian?

HMMM ;-)

I just want to save this....savor this...my self expression.. please respect...and understand.

"Hello..My dearest friend..Hope you are OK. Hmmmmmwah! Miss you so much. Miss you being there. Love you miss ....kroylyn... Kahit malayo ka."

How wonderful... I cant help but smile. This is what i mean when I said that it doesnt take much to have a happy day..just the thought that someone is thinking about me. AndI cant help but to think about him too. He is just a friend and i cant say if I could fall in love with him, yet he made me smile and that is enough. I thank you for making me feel good. I appreciate our friendship.


Thank you God for letting me experience some pain and the rewards of joy. Your blessings are endless...

Vission

My nephew is singing for Sunday service in our church. When my mother went to a foreign land, he was left in my custody. So during their practice I was there, too. Like a mother.. :-) Soon enough I became part of the group. I'm singing my lungs out with praises to the Lord. Although I am not a good singer, I tried my best to reach the high notes.

Then the instruments came. I have a background in guitar so I decided to take guitar lessons. Its not for me though, I'm thinking maybe later, when my nephew is old and interested enough, he will ask me to teach him how to play the guitar. He is not interested right now. I think he is not mature enough to take such actions for himself. So i stayed and tired myself practicing and playing the guitar. Then, one day, he asked me..

"Ate, could you teach me how to play the guitar when my hands have grown longer and stronger?"
"Of course!" I said.

I smiled to myself. All the pain and struggling....it was all paid.
An inspiration!

reflections

I often realized why the song "hawak kamay" by Yeng was so popular(i think)...maybe because people wanted so much to have someone they could rely on. It is just so heart-warming to hold someones hand and walk through life. The world or life itself is perhaps lonely and that the only concept they could hold on to was that somebody is waiting to be there no matter what happens.

I remember one line from a book or a card, i cant remember, and it goes:

"it doesnt take much to have a happy day...a sunshine..a quite place and the feeling that someone is thinking about you."

I think its true....the feeling that you are not alone in this cruel, unfair life..gives us strength and hope to continue to stay alive. It becomes our purpose maybe to struggle, to dream, to reach our goals, and to plan for the future. Or to the simplest thought..having someone makes us happy...

Does this fall under "Belongingness" in the hierarchy of needs? I think so..
If this is not making any sense to you..I dont care..Its my blog ok? ;)

Hmmmmmmm....stay happy. every minute is so precious to sit around and stare..make a moment..

HS

Im happy because we had a High School reunion in time with our teacher's birthday..

Ang dami naming napag-kwentuhan...buti naman nga walang umiyak sa asar hehehe...after ten years we came back to the era na hindi pa kami nag - iisip ng kung anu-ano parang naglalaro lang kami nuon..hehehe..

Surprisingly, ang talino pa rin ni Sir...Ang galing ng memoraya, ang galing ng mga kwento, ang galing ng paninindigan. Kaya nga mahal na mahal namin siya. Hindi lang siya magaling magturo..naiiintindihan niya pa kami...up until now..

Kahit walang tulog .. ang sarap ng pakiramdam .. parang nakaupo lang kami dun relax .. kwentuhan .. tawanan .. ngitian ... asaran ... heart-warming...

Nagpapasalamat ako at nakasama ko kayo lahat. Salamat kasi binigyan tayo ng mabait na guro..Nagpapasalamat ako at naging matiwasay naman ang High School days ko with all of you..my clasamates..

Kita-kits ulet..

a long time ago

A story tells that two friends were walking
through the desert. During some
point of the journey they had an argument, and
one friend slapped the other one in the face.

The one who got slapped was hurt,
but without saying anything, wrote in the sand:

TODAY MY BEST FRIEND
SLAPPED ME IN THE FACE.


They kept on walking until they found an oasis,
where they decided to take a bath. The one who
had been slapped got stuck in the mire and
started drowning, but the friend saved him.
After he recovered from the near
drowning, he wrote on a stone:

TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SAVED MY LIFE.



The friend who had slapped and
saved his best friend asked him,
"After I hurt you, you wrote in the
sand and now, you write on a stone,
why?" The other friend replied "When someone
hurts us we should write it down in sand where winds
of forgiveness can erase it away. But, when someone
does something good for us, we must engrave
it in stone where no wind can ever erase it."

I realized that i really have to spend more time expressing myself here...;)
making it more personal..a self-expression..really...
sometimes i felt very negative and lazy(a very bad combination) that i tend to express myself by locking myself in the room...passing time.
I dont know sometimes when i have a problem or i have some issues hanging like gallows above my head, i just sleep..slept my time through it..bad huh?
Now i thank the Lord. He have given me a talent for music and arts..
Its much easier to sing or play a guitar...
Or mixing colors or seeing depths in a simple view outside the window..
even the fishes in our aquarium have some distinct colors shinning...
i love details...i love colors...

Just now i remember a girl said..
"One day is not enough for all the thoughts in my mind..
for all the roads i'd like to take,for all the friends i'd love to see, and for all the things i would love to do."

Same here...

decision making 101

The story given below is quite interesting and

really gives us an insight into DECISION MAKING.

Which one will you choose?

A group of children were playing near two railway tracks, one still in use while the other disused.

Only one child played on the disused track, the rest on the operational track. The train came, and you were just beside the track interchange. You could make the train change its course to the disused track and saved most of the kids. However, that would also mean the lone child playing by the disused track would be sacrificed. Or would you rather let the train go its way?

Let's take a pause to think what kind of decision we could make.

Most people might choose to divert the course of the train, and sacrifice only one child.

You might think the same way, I guess.

Exactly, I thought the same way initially because to save most of the children at the expense of only one child was rational decision most people would make, morally and emotionally. But, have you ever thought that the child choosing to play on the disused track had in fact made the right decision to play at a safe place?

Nevertheless, he had to be sacrificed because of his ignorant friends who chose to play where the danger was. This kind of dilemma happens around us everyday.

In the office, community, in politics and especially in a democratic society, the minority is often sacrificed for the interest of the majority, no matter how foolish or ignorant the majority are, and how farsighted and knowledgeable the minority are.

The child who chose not to play with the rest on the operational track was sidelined. And in the case he was sacrificed, no one would shed a tear for him.The friend who forwarded me the story said he would not try to change the course of the train because he believed that the kids playing on the operational track should have known very well that the track was still in use, and that they should have run away if they heard the train's sirens.

If the train was diverted, that lone child would definitely die because he never thought the train could come over to that track! Moreover, that track was not in use probably because it was not safe. If the train was diverted to the track, we could put the lives of all passengers on board at stake! And in your attempt to save a few kids by sacrificing one child, you might end up sacrificing hundreds of people to save these few kids.

While we are all aware that life is full of tough decisions that need to be made, we may not realize that hasty decisions may not always be the right one.

"Remember that what's right isn't always popular...and what's popular isn't always right."

.....I have let my self in... a situation that was quite confusing...

.....It brought smiles, and sighs, and anticipation...

.....I received a sweet note from a friend and I felt my tears down my cheeks without ever realizing it... It was the phrase I missed and so longed to hear... to hear it from the one person I miss... I let my emotions took over me... I understand.....because soon I know.. these too shall pass....

.....No holding back... just taking my time...

.....

believe..its what they say

Read Each One Carefully and Think About It a Second or Two

1. I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you..

2. No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry.

3. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

4. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart.

5. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them.

6. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.

7. To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.

8. Don't waste your time on a person, who isn't willing to waste their time on you.

9. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.

10. Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened.

11. There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time around.

12. Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you try and know someone else and expect them to know you.

13. Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to.

REMEMBER: WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS FOR A REASON.

More of a... random thoughts .....

There was just a time when I went to a church or churches (i guess) sat down and wept. Poured my heart out. I guess that time, it was... maybe... just what i need.

And i guess i'm asking questions that really matters..about the life you're living in...your life experiences...simple and plain as it may be. And not the ones that were already answered by experts....

I knew someone that knows what to speak of/about at the right situations..at the right moment...making it simple yet compelling. Making everyone else follow to the wave he have started...

birthdate

BIRTHDATE & U...

Is your birthday day 1 of the month?

Your LifeYou are very curious and dedicative. When you are interested insomething, everything else has to wait. This is your quality. But ifyou learn to be more patient and complete what you have started, youwill be successful in life.Your LoveYou believe in love at first sight. You won't wait to learn moreabout the person. Vice versa, people who fail to impress you will hardly get a chance to be your friend. Your emotion is on the extreme. You can only love or hate, nothing in between and this often shows in your statement. Try not to end a relationship in a quarrel.

Is your birthday day 2 of the month?

Your LifeYou have great common sense but usually fail to follow through. This might happens because you are too busy with your mission and shutyourself from the outside world. You are clever and profound sothere's a slight chance for self-control problem.Your LoveYour love progress slowly, and quietly. You seem to be contented withyour unrequited love. Your are a romantic and loyal lover.

Is your birthday day 3 of the month?

Your LifeAlthough you are innocent and romantic but your statement often mislead others that you are an active, fun loving kid. Because ofyour double personality, it's hard for others to really know the real you. You are careful and patient.Your LoveYour love is the greatest which often surprises others. No one can bring you to light when you are in love. Your confidence might lead you to the track your parents disagree.

Is your birthday day 4 of the month?

Your LifeYou usually think before acting which makes your life quite easy. Butyou often are the one who give yourself a hard time by beingparanoid. People might not truly understand you but you are reallynice to be around. You are cheerful and friendly.Your Love Still water runs deep, that's what you are. You always surprise others with your new character when you are in love. Your love trap often comes unexpectedly and your love life is full of surprises.

Is your birthday day 5 of the month?

Your LifeAlthough you are on the quiet side, but you enjoy excitement andchanges. Routine is something you cannot stand. Because of yourextreme confidence, you hardly ask others for opinion. You believe inleading your own life, and you have got the gift in doing so.Your LoveNothing can stop you from making progress in your love life. Once youare in love, you feel the ownership of your lover. A third party canonly makes your jealousy becomes worse.

Is your birthday day 6 of the month?

Your LifeYou are generous with people in need, sometimes to an extreme thatpeople find you nosey. Your hidden courage and dedication oftensurprise others. Your imagination is extremely unique.Your LoveYour love life is on the smooth track because it grows fromfriendship. Although you may not make a sweet lover but yoursincerity bring happiness to your couple.

Is your birthday day 7 of the month?

Your LifeYou are sensitive to changes around you but your feeling is hardly expressed. You hate exaggerations. Under your quiet personality, youare rather stubborn and self-centered. These qualities are the force behind your extreme persistence.Your LoveYou have enormous courage to please your lover. Your relationship often progress quickly.

Is your birthday day 8 of the month?

Your LifeYou have pleasant and friendly personality. People look up to yourwit and imagination. You are unpredictable and hardly complete whatyou started, which sometimes create negative impact to people aroundyou.Your LoveFalling in love becomes your routine. Most of the time, you arelucky. You fascinate people with good taste but you never have enoughwith one. Although your love progresses very fast, it never lasts.

Is your birthday day 9 of the month?

Your LifeYou often have problem in promoting yourself, just because you don'tknow how to express your true self. On the other hand, you don'treally care what they think. This is why people misunderstand youuntil they really get a chance to learn about your pleasantpersonality. Opposite sex find you mysterious and worth searching.Your wit is remarkable but sometimes you are too fast to follow.Your LoveYou won't reveal your feeling even after dreaming about the same guyover and over. Your first love lasts forever. You are responsible tothe feeling of your lover. The chance to betray your lover is none.You have luck with children.

Is your birthday day 10 of the month?

Your LifeYou are very capable. If you are a woman, you have high chance to bea renowned workingwoman. If you are a man, your path to fame andhonour is near. As an innovator, you are not a good follower. You aregood in implementing your imagination and share it with others. Youare always well dressed.Your LoveYou often lose your love ones from being too jealous. You always feellike you own the person you fall in love with and that often blowsyour relationship.

Is your birthday day 11 of the month?

Your LifeYou are gracious, elegant and prudent. People admire your qualitiesand some even become jealous of you. You are realistic, flexible andadaptable. You are remarkably kind and moral person.Your LoveYou are willing to sacrifice yourself for the one you love. Yourlover will always have your gentleness, care and loyalty. You willalways be happy to hand around the one you love.

Is your birthday day 12 of the month?

Your LifeYou are friendly, humorous and full of energy. You are open-mindedand do not care for minor details. Your weak point is your hottemper.Your LoveYou are willing to start off in one-sided love affairs because youstrongly believe that you will eventually win his/her heart. On theother hand, once you are together, you always want to do things yourway, which is often the fire starter. You usually run in and out of love quickly.

Is your birthday day 13 of the month?

Your LifeYou are sincere and easy going. Flattering and charming around arenot your style. You care so much for freedom that often leads you tothe difficult path. Because of your sincerity, most people find youeasy to be around although you are sometimes too straightforward.Your LoveYour gentleness, care and sincerity make you an attractive person.Even though you don't intend to be charming, but you naturally are,especially in the eyes of opposite sex.

Is your birthday day 14 of the month?

Your LifeYou are so confident that sometimes you forget about the peoplearound you. If you have to be in one of the two teams, you willchoose to be in the winning team. On the other hand, you are kind andcaring but above all, you care for your own benefits. Yourimagination is unique and often gets implemented shortly after itcomes across.Your LoveYou will not get soft with the one you don't really like, no matterhow hard he/she tries. But once you feel for someone you have chosen,there's no getting back.

Is your birthday day 15 of the month?

Your LifeYou are outgoing and love to be at the center of attention. From theoutside, you may seem flashy, flirty, and tricky but your true selfis strong, full of hope to be the leader. When you fail to convincesomeone, you will get frustrated, and perhaps let your temper shows.Your LoveYou are emotional. Many can win your heart at once, but not for long.This is why you hardly win a decent relationship.

Is your birthday day 16 of the month?

Your LifeYou always follow the good and the right instead of listening to yourheart. Another word, you are a perfectionist. You care for every wordpeople say about you. You often seen isolated while you are, by nature, curious and a dreamer who is ready to get over the edge tomake your dream comes true.Your LoveYou often fall in love with a person who is much different from you,in age and other aspects. Your relationship grows on friendship. Love at fist sight is not your style.

Is your birthday day 17 of the month?

Your LifeYou neither want to be interfered nor have the desire to mess withothers' life. But you are friendly and occasionally a party animal.You are always in a circle of friends. You often do things in yourown way that occasionally go beyond the acceptable limit. People mayfind you childish and not very attractive in that sense.Your LoveYour fun-loving character attracts opposite sex. Many of those aregreat. You often find yourself trapped among a few great guys whileyou have to choose only one.

Is your birthday day 18 of the month?

Your LifeAt first glance, people think you are quiet type of person. Actuallyyou are cheerful, but conditionally. You will show your joyfulcharacter only in good mood. On the other hand, when you are moody,no one would dare to be around. Because of your emotion fluctuationand frank character, some find you hard to be around.Your LoveYou hardly show your feeling towards opposite sex no matter how muchyou like him/her. Your partner also has similar character so yourlove affairs often take quite a while to flourish. Time tells it all.Your sincerity makes you very attractive.

Is your birthday day 19 of the month?

Your LifeYou are great in managing everything in your life and this is how yougain respect from others. Because of this quality, you sometimes feelthat you are better than the rest. Extreme confidence might lead youto the wrong path. You are a free bird and want to lead your own life.Your LoveYou love life is rather different from others'. When you are in love,nothing can stop you. You may often fight with your partner but, soonafter that, you will make up in a way that surprises others.

Is your birthday day 20 of the month?

Your LifeYou are prudent, circumspect and take things seriously. Before youmake any move, you will think of a few alternatives that might take awhile. You are patient, imaginative and target oriented. You valuefriendship more than anything else.Your LoveYou usually study your partner carefully before making any move. Younever demand anything beyond the natural quality of that person. Yoursincerity doesn't bring excitement in your love life but it bringsdeeply grown relationship.

Is your birthday day 21 of the month?

Your LifeYou are curious and a true follower. You can please someone so muchthat it seem like you are trying to charm that person. You hide yourdisagreement under your smiling face. This is a charming quality ofyours.Your LoveYou are quite unlucky in love. You loved by someone that you don'tlike while your dream man is so far away. Your love life isoccasionally under turbulence. Sometimes you don't have the clearview of the guy in your heart.

Is your birthday day 22 of the month?

Your LifeYou have the boss character, but not a leader. Most people look up toyou for your capability and confidence although they find you quitestubborn. You should listen more to others. You are a unique andcharming individual.Your LoveYou hardly take the moderate track. You either love or hate someone.Whom you call friends are the chosen ones. If any of them betray you,you won't let them get away without having hard time.

Is your birthday day 23 of the month?

Your LifeYou never live your life in the way others want you to. You are anindependent individual who loves challenges and excitement. You areready to face with the result of your decision. You are usually theone your friends count on.Your LoveBecause you love excitements, you occasionally get involved inforbidden love affairs. You may fall in love with a married personand no one can stop you from making progress. You are very charming,although you might not realize it.

Is your birthday day 24 of the month?

Your LifeYou are very optimistic and that's why you always enjoy life. You aregifted in entertaining others. Your friends love and trust you.You'll be the first they come to when they are in need of someone tospeak their heart out.Your LoveSometimes you fall in love just because you want to be in love, notthat you really like that person. You always be seen as a sweetcouple but you can't really get over your love ones from past. Yourpartner is usually crazy about you because you are remarkablycharming and romantic.

Is your birthday day 25 of the month?

Your LifeYou are a warrior. No obstacle can stop you from reaching your goal.You always keep yourself busy. This quality plus your responsibility will eventually bring you success.Your Love You adore your partner as the number one priority. You value yourlove one more than yourself. Your love is the greatest of all and your have potential to get married young.

Is your birthday day 26 of the month?

Your Life You are always curious and responsive to changes. Routine life is notthe way you choose to live. Traveling is your favorite hobby because excitement is what you are after.Your LoveYou will not stand being around the one you dislike. Your love comes and goes quickly. You can be deeply in love but soon after you will be looking around for the next one.

Is your birthday day 27 of the month?

Your LifeYou are sensitive and vulnerable. Tears often run down your cheekseven when the matter is not that bad. This might be the result frombeing to pessimistic. You might seem cold on the shell, but yourinner self is a kind loving person.Your LoveYou will be elegantly dressed, no matter how casually dressed yourdate may be. You are demanding in love and sometimes to anunacceptable extend.

Is your birthday day 28 of the month?

Your LifeYou are a capable person but you usually underestimate your ownability. This is the cause of missing numbers of opportunity to stepforward. If you try to give yourself a chance, you can be successfulin life. Try to see things on the bright side and you will be happierthan ever.Your LoveYou are quite unlucky in love. The one in your arm is not the one inyour heart. Your love has so many ups and downs. You often chickenout before seeing any progress in love.

Is your birthday day 29 of the month?

Your LifeYou can trust your sixth sense. Life is exciting so routine job is not your interest. You have great ideas and fantastic imagination.You often feel tired of things and people around you.Your Love You can tell what's in the mind of another person just from looking into his/her eyes. You are paranoid and jealous and these are thecause of fights between you and your lover. Sometimes the thing you believe in is just your imagination.

Is your birthday day 30 of the month?

Your Life You are always surrounded by a circle of friends. You are friendlyand fun to be with. Although you occasionally disappoint them bybeing stubborn, but over all, they love your qualities.Your LoveYou want to have full control of your love and that's not a nice wayto treat your partner. You take your time in saying yes to his wedding proposal or if you are a man, you will not propose anyone until you are certainly confident which might take ages.

Is your birthday day 31 of the month?

Your LifeYour emotion is hard to predict. You can be sad this minute and happyin the next. People might find it difficult to follow your emotion and understand you. You tend to take things seriously.Your LoveYou take your time to study a person before falling in love. Once you decide that he or she is the one, no one can stop you from making progress, even your partner.

Pahiyas FestivaL

Right after the Elections..I went to Quezon to witness the Pahiyas Festival. Though I lack a lot of sleep, I 'm so excited to get there. I leave the house around 3:30 AM and meet my friend at the station and we went to cubao.It was almost 3 hours to Lucena and about 30 minutes to Lucban. The place was great. The heat of the sun was burning but the spirit of the people was warm as well.

The church of san isidro has its own beauty to speak of. There is a certain elegance to it that captures the critical eyes of photographers.
The artistic side of the people in Lucban was best exemplified in the designs of their houses. It will trigger your mind and its amazing how detailed it was.

Let me add to this later...sometimes words are not enough to describe it

May Election

It's my first time to be a poll watcher..
Mga 6 or 7 seven years pa lang kami sa probinsyang kinabibilangan namin ngayon kaya kung sa mga personalidad lang sa aming bayan and tatanungin eh zero balance ako dyan. Pero malayo pa ang eleksyon ay maugong na ang labanan ng dalawang kampong siguradong magtutunggali sa darating na halalan. Sa usap -usapin ang maglalaban ay ang dating mayor at ang kasalukuyang mayor kaya talagang labanan ito sa kapangyarihan. Ang kasalukyang mayor ay binato na kaagad ng mga di magagandang usapin ukol sa kanyang pinatayong unibersidad sa aming bayan. At syempre, may depensa ang mayor ukol sa usaping ito. Mainit ang pangangampanya kaya't naisipang kong maging poll watcher ng kampo na sinusuportahan din ng tatay ko. Bagama't ang kabilang kampo naman ay sinusuportahan ng aming Pastor. Bukod sa sasahurin ko(hehehe) isang bagong kaalaman ito para sa akin.

Araw na ng eleksyon tanghali pa ako nagising..tama ba yun?!

Maingay ang paligid, madami na kaagad basura ng papel sa paligid. Namumuo na kaagad ang tensyon, seryoso na ang teacher, naghahanapan na kaagad ng mga presinto. Maayos naman ang botohan wala namang kakaibang kilos. Liban sa isa kong napuna. Nasa labas ako nun ng silid. May naghihintay na dalawang babae sa labas. May dumating na lalaking nakaputing t-shirt. At pagtapos nun pumasok na ang mga babae para bumoto. Matapos bumuto ang dalawa ay nakangiting lumisan ang tatlo. Palagay ko nagkabayaran na sa ibaba. Hay...

Ang matinding tensyon ay ang pagbibilang. Mahigpit sila magbantay. Mahigit isang daan lang ang mga naging botante pero nakatutok ang bawat isa sa amin. Hindi umaalis o natitinag sa pagmatiyag sa binabasa ng guro at ang pagsusulat ng nagta-tally ng boto. May mga ilang pagkakataon din naman na nagkatawanan sa loob ng silid pero pang-alis lang ng tensyon..May mga hindi balanseng "tally" buti na lang maliit lang. Siguro alas-diyes na kami natapos sa pagbibilang. Pagod na ang lahat pero hindi pa rin kami umaalis hanggat di natatapos ng guro ang pagpirma sa "election returns". Laking pasalamat ko na lang at hindi naman kami nagkakagulo. Sa kabilang presinto nagkamali daw ang guro at maka dalawang beses na nabilang ang sampung balota kaya nagprotesta ang mga watcher. Uulit sila ng pagbibilang. Haaay.

strive to follow

I once ask GOD to revive my gifts and use me to glorify His name. The answers came in abundance. I am so blessed to have been given the opportunity to glorify His name.To sing praises to Him.

When I went home from another country, I purchased something of value. It is a gift for myself. It is for my nephew, too. It is very valuable to me as much as I have valued everything that is given to me. Now, I have to give it up for His need. I felt afraid to shoulder a new responsibility. Im afraid of the consequences. But then I realized this was a test of my faith. A review of my weaknesses. Like purifying gold, we are all put to fire. The preaching told us that everything we do for His name and for His words will be rewarded. But moreso, we or I (for that matter) should have been delighted to serve the Lord. It is a priviledge given to me to glorify His goodness to me. And I surrender.

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We are pressed on every side by troubles, but not crushed and broken... We get knocked down, but we GET UP again and keep going...II Corinthians 4:8-9

I was inspired by a blogger that I came across only a couple of weeks ago. Then, it made me realized the importance of giving testimonies of our life to glorify our Lord.

Looking back I was crushed by emotional problems and the only one I turned to was God. I went to church (I was a catholic then) and poured my heart out. I cried until there was no more tears left. I prayed that I can have healing. And He answered it and I'm happy because now I understand.

This time around, I felt the same pain of a lost love I had once felt. But today, although I'm at the process of healing and struggling, I felt confident that later I will have happiness and peacefulness that the Lord have promised. The hurt and loneliness was beyond my expectations but now I can divert my thoughts to a more meaningful ideas. I'm certainly picking up the shattered pieces and determined to put myself and my life together. The Lord have made me turned my back to sins and made me a new person. He does not only saved my life but also my soul.

not a poem

Im playing a new tune.
Different from the one i've already learned.
It surprises me, entrails me.
Amazing how it moves me.

I'm practicing by heart.
Focusing my mind.
Training my body.
Enjoying my time.

My hands ache at every beat.
But it relaxes my spirit.
My throat strains with high pitch.
But lifting my voice to Him.

I will not fail, determined to pray.
Until last thread of endurance fails.
My soul is blessed while singing.
Singing praises to Jesus, my king.

Just amazing

I never really knew someone so famous. I think famous is not the right term(can you help me). I think to describe it, someone who knew their talents and capabilities and have succeed in nurturing them. The few chosen ones who rise up above the rest.

I have been given the oppurtunity to spend part of my High School years with the genius Roselle Ambubuyog. Her weakness have not a bit mitigate her self confidence and perseverance. She is a scholar and she is a genius. These words may never be enough to describe the grandeur of this lady. She has a very good sense of humor and is very down to earth. And she has a good heart.

Recently i found out that my High School friend passed the board exams. I also learned that she was the councilor in their district. She have earned the delight and respect from her friends. Maybe someday i will be surprised she'd be running for senator.

I recently discovered a very talented photographer. He is capturing the wonders of nature. He expresses the emotions of human. He believes in education.

I came accross an accident on our way to church. The old lady was hit by a motorbike. She could not stand up, she had a broken leg. A few men and a tricycle driver offered to take her to the hospital.

These people are gifts to us, to the human race. Like the scientist, inventors, artists and engineers before us. They have captured our minds and hearts. They have given society a new perspective. Inputing their own principles to life. That they may give hope and inspiration to people.

Its not being famous really. Its not even what they have done. Its how they touch ordinary lives.

God Bless Us.

Break free

Pilit ko man sabihin sa sarili ko na

"papasakop ako o masunurin ako,"

hindi ko pa rin magawa.

Gusto kong lumaya. Gusto kong mag-explore.

Mahilig ako magpunta sa ibat-ibang lugar.

Gusto kong subukan ang sarili ko kung kaya ko siyang puntahan.

Gusto kong magbiyahe.

Gusto kong magpunta sa maraming tao gaya ng Divisoria.

Gusto kong magpunta sa na lugar na pwede kong ilublob ang mga paa ko sa tubig.

Gusto kong mamalas ang ganda ng dagat.

Minsan gusto ring sumigaw kapag naabot ko na ang tuktok ng bundok.

Gusto kong gumuhit at ipinta ang kulay ng langit.

Gusto kong maglakad.

Uumpisahan ko na.

Sayang, gusto ko kasama kita.

the beach

Ang ganda ng beach. Ang linaw ng tubig. Ang sarap damhin ng init ng araw. Ang sarap ng simoy ng hangin, malinis at malamig sa pakiramdam. Ang sarap lumangoy. Feeling ko para akong isda sa dagat na malayang nakakalangoy saan ko man naisin. Relax kapag sa bawat kampay ng paa ko ay umuusad ako patungo sa lugar na abot ng aking paningin. Nakaka- inganyong sumisid at kunin sa ilalaim ng dagat ang mga batong maputi at makinis. Sana nga may waterproof akong camera para pati sa ilalaim ng dagat at makuha ko ang kagandahan ng nature.

Nagpapasalamat ako sa ate ko dahil in-enrol niya ako sa swimming school. Nagpapasalamat ako sa teacher ko na matiyagang nagturo sa akin bagamat hindi kami magkaintindihan. Nagturo siya ng tama at ayon sa takbo ng pakatuto ko. Nagpapasalamat ako sa mga kaklase ko dahil binigyan nila ako ng pag-asa. Nagpapasalamat ako sa sarili ko kasi hindi ako sumuko. Nagpapasalamat ako sa Diyos dahil binigyan niya ako ng pagkakataon at iningatan niya ako palagi.

Have you gone to the beach lately? treat mu naman ang sarili mu paminsan-minsan hindi yung puro trabaho. Kung pupunta ka sama ako ha?! ;-)

When to let go ..

Email sa akin dati.

Imagine this.
In your hand is a very precious creation, so fragile, so valuable that if you keep on holding, it would either stay or fall apart.But you loved this creature so much, so much that letting it go would be like letting go of your life as well. So much that sometimes you wished it would be there forever. So much that you tend to be selfish at times so as you could make it stay for as long as you like.Don't we all wish something "so good" could be forever? Don't we all hope that happiness is there to stay?

One person said, never ever let your heart run your life, as much as you can, always be sensible and let your mind speak for itself. Try to listen not merely on what your feelings is invoking on you as a person but more importantly listen to reason as well.Letting go of someone doesn't necessarily mean you have to stop loving, it only means that you allow that person to find his own happiness without expecting him to come back.

Letting go is not just setting the other person free (in the real sense of it), but it is also setting yourself free from all animosity, revulsion, and resentment that was long kept in your heart. You have to let go because the bitterness often puts away the strengths and weakens the littlest hope, making our lives more miserable than ever. Worst, presenting yourself as the "most affected one" sets the nastiest impression of all time--whatta a loser!

The trick there is...always remember that if you lose someone today, itmeans that someone better is coming tomorrow.If you lose love that doesn't mean that you failed in love...right? Just regard it as another mismatch of heaven! Well, you can cry of course, or whine or shout (growl even) if you have to, but make sure that after those outbursts you have washed away the hurt and the bitterness that the pasthas left with you (easy said than done I know!).We can all survive with just beautiful memories of the past but real peace and happiness come only with open acceptance of what reality is today.

You really don't have to forget someone you love ('cause it's hard). What we need to learn is how to accept the verdict of reality without being bitter or sorry for what we have become. I think it's better that we give off that dedication and love to someone more deserving. Hmmm..."Who could it be" is the next interesting question to ponder.Let go of yesterday and love will find its way back to you. And when it does, pray hard that it may be the love that will stay and last a lifetime.

my six-months life

Ang natatandaan ko malapit na akong magresign sa dati kong work. Gusto ko nang umalis talaga pero hindi sa paraang ganito. Pupunta ako sa malayong lugar na hindi ko alam ang magyayari sa akin. Maiiwan ko ang love ko. Maiiwan ko ang mga kaibigan ko. Mawawala ang tenure ko. At feeling ko mahihinto ang buhay ko. Well slight ganun nga ang nangyari. Mapunta ka ba naman sa bansa na iba ang salita eh di para ka na ring naging pipi at bingi. Buti na lang kasama ko ang nanay ko at nakatira kami sa bahay ng ate ko dun sa Japan.

Well ako'y nasadlak sa ibat-ibang trabaho. May maliit ang sahod pero nakakalibre naman ako ng overseas call. Mayroong malaking sahod pero gising ka naman magdamag. At higit sa lahat malayo ako sa loves ko. Hanggang sa hindi ko nakayanan, nakipaghiwalay ako. Malapit na ang 6 months at malapit na akong umuwi pero bitbit naman ang mga papels pabalik sa Japan. Kung hindi ba naman, naulit pa! Well, marami ding nangyari sa halos isang buwan ko dito sa Pilipinas. Nakipagkita ako sa mga kaibigan ko, nag-ayos ng papels, nag charity works, etc. Nagkabalikan din kami ng loves ko.

At eto na balik 6 months. This time mas grabe. Matindi ang trabaho,kayod kabayo talaga at gawaing bahay pa. Kailangan mu pang makisama sa mga tao sa bahay. Kailangan mu pang intindihin ang pamilya sa pilipinas. Kailangan mu pang dalhin ang problema ng isang tao dahil ayaw mu siyang ma-stress. Iisipin mu pa yung loves mu sa pilipinas. (Puro reklamo) But this is when i grow in Faith. Kasama ko si Lord kaya hindi ako nag give -up. Nagdadasal na lang ako na sana malapit na akong umuwi.

Ang sarap ng buhay. I'm free.

But wait anu na naman ito?

Kailangan naman umalis ng bestfriend ko to another country.Pero madali pa ito kasi at least its for her future and for her family. The last time we saw each other was at the airport na.

Nagkasakit naman ang sister ko. At kailangan niyang operahan sa utak. Fortunately, miracle ng Lord at fully-recovered naman siya. Pero kailangan bumalik ng nanay ko sa Japan. Maiiwan ako to take care of my family. Trabaho at pamilya ang gagampanan ko. I can't handle one more.

Saka na ang happy days.

Another 6 months.

fresh

i'm glad i have found a new home. i guess this just what i need right now.happy to be a writer once more (at least for myself). may i have a lot of inspiration to write songs,stories, etc. And time to express how i really feel. i have a lot to say, some comments to post and a whole lot of reading to do...i hope this will at least ease the weariness i felt right now.

Answered vacation

the Blue

I got the inspiration from a great photographer jake. thank you po.I'm a fan of yours pero konti lang.

My sister and my nephew.enjoying the clear waters of Puerto Galera beach. If not for the sunblock, maybe they wont be smiling like that afterwards. hehehe